destiny is in your own hands. No one else can carry your cross for you. That you must do for yourself. Jesus carried his own cross and so must all of us. Forget about Jesus dying for your sins. Your sins are your own responsibility. Only you and you alone can save yourself. The actions of another cannot save you spiritually. It has to be your own good conduct that saves you. The conduct of another cannot do so. Even if another show you the road, they cannot walk for you. You will have to walk that road yourself.
This is the road of the knower and to know, you have to walk alone. If you are afraid you will choose to walk with those who are believers.